By: Ankita Nawalakha
I just want to be an observer, a silent observer to everything happening. I don’t want to judge anybody, neither be judged. I don’t want to expect neither be expected from. I want to fly. Fly away. Fly over. Fly across. I don’t want to think about the past or the future. I don’t want to think whether my actions will lead to fruition or not. For I want to be a doer, a doer of the highest order. I want to do without thinking of the consequences, of the glory it will get me. I want to stop my desire, my need for external validation, I want to stop seeking safety of fancy names and organizations.
I want to just.. be. And let other around me be. I want to come out of that wrapped layer of protection. For I want to be unashamedly me. I want to go wherever this beating heart takes me, learn and grow. I don’t want to think whether it will lead me somewhere. I want my path to be the goal, the end. I want the journey to take hold of me, I want it to lead me wherever it must. I don’t want to be thinking about the shackles of society- parents, siblings, friends, peers and my own thoughts and schemas which have been conditioned by the society. I want to laugh hard, I want to cry hard. I want to feel my emotions, really feel them. I want to get detached from them. I want to find my purpose of life- that one thing I am meant for.
I want to be an observer to all this- to the journey, to my actions, to the world. For I just want to be.